Faghag

You’re such a nosy faggot!

 

suddenly it’s like Sept 2005 once again…

and I am afraid, insecure and lost.

will you do it again and leave me hangin’?

will you take the risk of losing me again…this time for good?

I am thinking of ending infinity and turning it into an eternity of life…without me, physically and spiritually.

I am now depressed and desperate.

I am lost, lost, lost.

I am a lost soul.

You will never be able to save me…soon.

Are you willing to take the risk, my love?

~mytearjerker~

 

I “crush” U

borrowed from David Archuleta’s Song “CRUSH”…to my friend MT who has  a very big crush on LA

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized…
Am I crazy or falling in love…
Is it real or just another crush…

~MT for LA~

 

I LOVE U

A friend of mine shared this love poem he got from an admirer…the person who composed this  must be so in love to have wrote such long and very endearing..yet sad poem. Nonetheless, I applaud the writer to have such courage to share her thoughts and feelings in such a beautiful way…have you got a love letter lately?

- mytearjerker-

~

???

what must I do to forget you??

i never have thought that i’ll fall 4 u..

i never should have played w/ love..

now, i am hurt..

now, i am confused..

now, i am crazy over u..

it’s funny things went this wrong.

this is not part of my plans..

i care for our friendship.

i don’t want to lose it..

but,

i know the price of confessing this is to break it.

i know that  for u this whole thing is gross..

i understand..

it’s painful but TRUE.

i am hurt bec. i could no longer control it..

i am always longing for u..

i always have sleepless nights bec. i think of u.

i’ve always have wanted to be at ur side.

yes, i always smile..

i always laugh..

i look care-free..

but the look in my face does

not reflect the real emotion i have inside.

nobody knows the burden i’m w/ right now..

nobody feels the heartache..

nobody feels the pain.

except by me, and myself only..

i am confused bec. i don’t know what to do..

i am trying to kill this feeling..

i just can’t..

i have tried to stop it in the 1st place..

that was not successful.

believe me, i’ve done everything..

i just couldn’t stop it no matter

how hard i try..

Evenif w/ all will,

things seems impossible as of now..

ANd now, i am crazy over u..

u were right from the start..

i like u and i want u..

i am sorry..

i hate myself..

and i know u hate me too…

i know telling u this

is one way of erasing this

f***ing feeling… f***ing indeed!

It will wreck our frendship and

this might help me forget all of this..

I’m sorry Sy..

I am just overwhelmed w/ pain..

If only i have not felt this..

things would have still stay the same..

I can stil keep u as a friend..

I can still be at urside..

I can still stare on ur smiles..

and I can still feel ur hugs..

I’m sure ALL will change after u read this..

I just want u to know that i am thankful to have met u..

U are one o my idols here in the floor..

U have been one of my inspirations..

I will not forget u..

Sorry again..

I know things can’t be brouht back the way it used to be..

It’s different now..

I know u wil already dump me as ur frend..

That’s ok.. I will accept it..

It’s my fault anyways..

It’s all because of me..

I will now stay out of ur sight..

…stay out of ur life!

And for the first and the last time..

Allow me to say, I LOVE U..

~RFB  to PSM~

 

You dissapoint me…

You proved him right J!

 

Blast from the Past

I coined this phrase during the tumultous era of my life…

“Even though love did not work out for me, I’m still glad it worked out for others”

- mytearjerker-

 

The ART of War by MyTearjerker

“Keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer.”

 

Dying Inside

I’m getting back the song I let you borrow, instead I have a new one which is more apt with your current situation…It was a courageous of you to let the one you love know how you feel for him…GO sest!

Dying Inside To Hold You

by: Timmy Thomas

It’s turning outjust another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
Had a coffee and pie
When I turned to leave
I couldn’t believe my eyes

Standing there I didn’t know what to say
Without one touch
We stood there face to face

Refrain:

(and) I was dying indside to hold you
I couldn’t believe what I felt for you
Dying inside, I was dying inside
But I couldn’t bring myself to touch you

You said hello then you asked my name
I didn’t know if I should go or remain
Inside I felt my life had really changed
I knew that it would never be the same

Standing there I didn’t know what to say
First I looked away when I whispered your name

Refrain 2x

One hello changed my life
I didn’t believe in love at first sight
But you’ve shown me what is life
And I now I know my love (i know it’s coming right)

Refrain (fade)

 

Dreamin’ of you..

I dedicate this post to my friend ..Jessie..

I hope that when you’re dreamin of him HE is also dreamin about you…

Dreamin’ of You

by: Selena

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I’d stay up and think of you
And I’d wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I’m dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I’ll be holding you tight
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I’m there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what’s inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I’ll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I’ll be holding you tight
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Ahhh…I can’t stop dreaming of you
Ahhh…I can’t stop dreamin

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I’d stay up and think of you
And I still can’t believe that you came up to me
And said, “I love you; I love you too”

Now I’m dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly…

 

The Art of War by Jessie

I choose my battles!